Your Illusion is not my Reality

We only dated a few times and you broke up with me at least five times in that 2 month period. A relationship can only be formed if 2 people are emotionally healthy enough. If one person is an alcoholic, a ragoholic, or otherwise clouded or lost, it is stopped, done before anything started.

I had many years in a healthy relationship with my equal. I refuse to go backwards into dysfunction, co-dependency or abuse.

If someone is broken and acknowledges it, they owe it to themselves to take the necessary steps to heal themselves. If they are ingesting substances that are clouding their judgment or murdering their soul, they need to reach out and get help from a treatment center or another professional. They need to acknowledge their own issues and take responsibility for their own actions, not continually blame-storming others in their life. In other words, no one else can save you but you.

It's not up to me to break down the barbed wire and stone fence you built around your heart. The only one who can let love into your heart is you, by being kind and loving yourself. I love myself enough to let go and stop cutting myself on the barbed wire.

Then, one day, they may be able to find a healthy relationship with someone (not me). A real relationship takes compromise, openness, healthy attitudes, and more. I have my own mission, my own dreams. I am not here to be someone else’s live “real doll” – to be dismissed when I don’t match whatever fantasy is built up in his mind.

I am responsible for me

I let go and let god

I chose myself

I chose health

I chose love

I owe that to myself and the people who love me