Sometimes the obvious is missed

It feels like I'm taking 2 steps back at times. Maybe it's falling backwards in order to realize one needs to stand back up and keep moving forward.

Maybe it's the whole dichotomy of American culture. As a culture we value money and success over the quality of one's life or the actions of a person. We lost sight of our souls in the pursuit of money, success. When we lose connection to our soul, we lost the ability to really be all we're meant to be. We lose our true ability to be giving creatures full of honor and grace.

Our culture has also corrupted human sexuality in a similar way. Human sexuality becomes just physical and a method to repress and regress what we are meant to be as men and women. Men are only told that sex is a conquest-based activity; it is the man's job to hold down, control, and order their partners. [There can be such a script within this broken sexuality, that if a woman tries to move from it, she is corrected and told what to say and do.] Women feel less than when they give into their sexual feelings and lose their flame, their light.

We are meant to be equals, to find harmony and balance within the true pure power of love-love of the other, love of the Great Divine, love of the universe. 

We keep missing what we need due to Ego-based wants..
 
Life is a journey; sometimes we wander of the path we're meant to take. I feel like I've taken a small detour the past week or two. Now I can see, its not for me to go back into those old feelings of feeling "less than". I know I deserve much, much more than that. So, it's time to let go of temporary lust and those "little deaths of the soul" that come from the smoke and mirrors of sexting and phone sex. Time to continue to nurture my heart, my soul,and embrace life.